dealing with unconscious limitation

You have a dream, but you fear it. Why? It probably won't suit you. It may be because you know to achieve it, you have to give your best effort. You think it is beyond your limit. You never knew because you haven't done it. You face uncertainty along the way to get your dream. Deep down in your heart, you believe that the path you choose will lead to your passion. Passion for you is not how you achieve common acknowledgment, but how to achieve your own purpose, values, and your dream-kind of life. Someone's dream is not just one or two. During the journey of life, someone will found their dream changes. It is different for everyone and you can't compare it with others. Passion is not something that is instantly acquired. It is founded when you are doing something while collecting experiences or something that you have wanted for a long time. It is a compass - that thing that takes you some time to build, tinker with, and finally get right, and then guides you on your long and winding road to where, ultimately, you want to be. It keeps you on track. That passion keeps you pushing your limits unconsciously and makes the bar one step ahead of your ordinary to become a part of something bigger than yourself. It is not meant to be shown to other people, but to prove to yourself you are brave enough to do it, to try to achieve it. 

If, right now, you are stuck in a comfortable situation and trying to escape to the point that leads you to the vast ocean to catch your big or at least different fish one by one. You worried about whether you will hook the same fish, better fish, or worse fish. Where to achieve it, you have to sacrifice your time, effort, and money. At times like this, having a purpose is critical to keep you going forward. Like the wind pushing a ship to its destination. Without the wind, you will not be able to make yourself move even though you give your best effort. There are always ways if you sincerely want to do it. It is about the power of willingness. The compass is your purpose, values, and passion that drive and guide you to your target destination.

However, the dilemma is, "I was in a comfortable position, but somehow I wasn't fulfilled. I can't touch my purpose. I want to go to another destination. I feel stuck in the middle of the lake. I want to see myself more. I need to keep rowing. but which way?". The way, it depends on you, on which side do you want to go. When you are making your plan to go in that direction, you only had the imagination. That becomes real when you're taking action. Sometimes, you are scared because every plan has weaknesses. 

"It was a really winding road that took me to all kinds of places. And it was difficult, discouraging, demoralizing, and scary, and all the rest."

It is the uncertainty that you compare with the benefit you expected to get. Having expectation is something that gives hope, but we must prepare for the worst. Either prepare for your mentality or your backup plan. Despite the fact that you sacrifice yourself in a way to get your dream. You just have to let your imagination flows by keep rowing to see the end. No one can guarantee what will be waiting at the end of your journey. At least you are moving on and search for a life that makes you happy. The life that gives you meaning and makes you fulfilled. You're not going to get anywhere if you are searching for perfection in your plan. You will still have that anxiety, even when you hold back your plan. Life is just a game anyway. You wouldn't know if you do not try it. Let you use the power of "Just Do It", but with your full responsibility for that decision. Don't be afraid of failure, rejection, and uncertainty. If you believe talent grows with persistence and effort, you seek failure as an opportunity to improve. and don't be afraid of people's opinions. Stop seeing yourself through everyone else's eyes.

Your courage defeats your anxiety. Your faith defeats your fear.

Why am I trying to get out of my comfort zone, exactly? It is a question I have to face when I start to reorganize my own plan and re-start, but I must avoid it while in the process. Set goals and step-by-step action in advance, but don't falter in the process. Why? You won't reach your destination if you keep changing directions before you arrive. Enthusiasm is common, endurance is rare. Having grit - passion and perseverance. The capacity to have patience, to struggle, because things can not be achieved overnight.

Think about it for a second. Let you stay there forever in the place you are in, then would you feel excited about it or see the potential in yourself? How many of us holding ourselves back because of the uncertainty going around our life? There is no perfect place. But if you want to see more, you have to keep moving on. Unless you would be looking into the same view you are in now. My brother always reminds me that my life decision is none other than myself. Although, perspectives and suggestions are necessary. and don't blame others or situations for things you cannot change yourself. It is useless.

This place is fascinating and almost perfect, but somehow this is not yet close to what I want to do. I also want to reach my dream kind of life. Maybe I can't fulfill it completely, at least I'm slowly approaching it. Again, my dream-kind of life is not things I want to achieve like material things, dream job, or recognition but the purpose I value in my life.

"A tiny step in your action will not transform your life overnight. But turn that action into a change that you perform every day and it absolutely can lead to a big transformation for you. Changing your life is not about making big breakthroughs or revolutionizing your entire life. But to make your life fulfilled by your version".

at least I try to see myself more. Life is too short, yet too wide to stay in a comfortable place without being alive and losing your passion. It is ok if you want to keep rowing in the same lake while also find your passion in it. All lakes look beautiful to the eye of the beholder. However, I see something more beautiful that I want to try to explore and achieve. Become the person that would make me feel a deep sense of pride within.

Notes: Be grateful always.