patiently persevere

Opportunity is not given, you have to earn it to make it happen. I have been wondering if I did not start what I have done today, where will my life goes now. I want to continue my study in the United States this year. Going to heroic lengths to prepare for it, pulling all-day all-nighters in the process, two-third night prayers, patience, endurance, and consistency. I have been waiting, each day, for a status update email from all universities to which I applied. I refreshed my email each hour to see if good news catches up. Month by month, I started to get both rejection and failure. Then one day, I was jogging and want to change the song playlist, accidentally refresh my email while running, and see "congratulations" or "your status has been updated". I was accepted into several US universities. I don't know how to react to great things that happened during my jogging session. I told my parents that I got in, and I am being serious about it, they both happy and sad at the same time cause they had to send their child once again to the States, my brother lived there for 8 years. My sister and brother were proud, he asked "are you serious about it or you just give it a go?", that is the greatest reaction that I never expected. I am serious about all things, with what I said I would achieve.

The story behind the scenes is not easy. A lack of concentration and focus in a world of constant distractions is everyone's biggest challenge. All you need to do is to minimize as many distractions. If the dream is important to you then it really doesn't matter how long it takes. If you are not even beginning with the process, then I doubt that you even want that dream. Anything worth pursuing takes time. A lot of my friends lost focus even before they started it. I can count only with my one hand how many still stay on track. People ask me what I've been looking for by trying to get into higher education. Well, I said, I don't know, yet. That is why I need to look for it while settle is not my thing. I am working for my purposes, if I want to do bigger things, the risk is a price I pay for the opportunity. I can't even stand people's looks if I say I want to make the world better, making my work becomes someone's reason to smile. The more I explain the more it gets weirder. but here is the thing:

• Be prepare to be misunderstood.
• Anyone who works on a big vision will be called crazy.
• Anyone who takes the initiative will always be criticized for moving too fast.
• Anyone working on a complex problem will be blamed for not fully understanding it. because it is impossible to understand everything. 
• Dreams don't come out fully form, it becomes clear as we work on them. We just have to get started.

I often questioned and doubted myself if any of my ambitions were wrong. I feel I should never feel guilty. If any of my things were meant to show or prove to others that I can achieve things then I am wrong. But if this is all I do for myself and for the better of other peoples' lives, I have no need to be recognized. There is absolutely no shame in working hard to get to where you want to be. 

Stay positive in the face of overwhelming odds.